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Wednesday, April 30th, 2008
4:06 pm - long ago.....
Long ago I made my last entry in my LJ. So much has happened in my life that it is overwelming at times. Quick list:
*nervous breakdown day after Thanksgiving 2006 = 8 hours in ER
*treatment on knees was shot in each,once a week for six weeks. By week three needed time off from work.
*put in for time off...they said I never did = when I came back after three weeks NO JOB (now 2007)
*marriage on rocks = me leaving when no real support at home (Feb)
*living with good friend (Niki)
*buy booth at GARF
*divorce (July)
*new job..part time but my knees can't handle much more than that
*holidays really hard

This year has been better but still real hard. Niki and I are in second year at GARF. Knees are painful,no insurance,so no doctor to see what can be done.

Didn't realize how much I'd miss having a relationship. Yes the intimate part is missed, but just having someone to hold me and lie and tell me everything will be okay is more missed.
Know that in time I will find someone again.

Good note I did lose between 30 and 35 pounds last year.

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Saturday, December 16th, 2006
3:12 am - this is soooo me
On the twelfth day of Christmas, quietmoon sent to me...
Twelve suicidal_smileys drumming
Eleven marcgunns piping
Ten captnsparrows a-leaping
Nine fairies cooking
Eight unicorns a-reading
Seven dragons a-sewing
Six friends a-knitting
Five cra-a-a-afts
Four stuffed animals
Three lost boys
Two mystical creatures
...and a tqa in a poetry.
Get your own Twelve Days:


current mood: amused

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Thursday, November 23rd, 2006
10:24 am - Thankful
Happy Thanksgiving to all my friends.....

Spend the day with those you love...

current mood: thankful

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Monday, November 20th, 2006
11:39 am
Okay this is the week that is really crazy at work. As it is at every retail store. Add my mom and brother coming up for Thanksgiving, a really painful time with my knees adn emotional breakdown ans you have my current life. But I've gotten so used to it by now I go with the flow.
Hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving. Mine will be even with all my problems. After Friday and Saturday season will be all downhill. Crazy yes but at least it will be underway.

Happy Holidays.

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Saturday, November 11th, 2006
2:26 am - awake in the middle of the night
Okay so here it is 1am. Why am i up?
two reasons come to mind....
1. I was so tired earlier I went to bed before 8p.m. and my body is now saying okay time to be awake. (stupid body)
2. My knee has been acting up lately and was throbbing so, it also added to the whole being awake thing.

so I have medicated myself,and am waiting for meds to kick in (anytime now would be good)and surfing the net.
Added a quiz to my myspace and am now updating since I havn't in a while.
Why havn't I updated....

Nothing much has changed in my life and its still the same stuff going on. I'm tired of complaining about work.And the girls are doing their own things...
So unless a different exciting wonderful event happens...
my life goes on

current mood: hurting

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Tuesday, October 24th, 2006
9:51 am - David and the ER
Hate going to the ER. It freaks me out being there. Unfortunatly thats where I've been most of the morning.

Went to work (had to be there by 6am) Once there got a call from Brit. David couldn't feel his legs. OMG! She called Aunt (who lives closer than my work) and I told her I was on my way.

Ambulance ride to hospital, by now he can feel legs but they feel numb. He's also in a anxiety attack. Get him checked in, doctor sees him,asks Dave what he wants today. Pain relief would be good!!!! Seems his herniated disc has probably flared up again and pain control is best thing.

So three shots later, one pain, one for anxiety, one muscle relaxer and wait to make sure no reactions and we come home.

He can walk real slow and with walker. And now is in bed. Meds are really kicking in. But he can't drive this week. Thank goodness I can get Brit this afternoon, and can be to work late tomorrow, Thursday I'm gonna see if Brit can get ride with friend home and Friday I have off.

My nerves are going hay-wire. But will be okay.

current mood: anxious

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Sunday, October 22nd, 2006
2:09 pm - PARTY!!!!
quietmoon's Halloween party:

acheronp dressed as Wile E. Coyote.
airika dressed as Tiffani-Amber Thiessen.
anemptyportrait dressed as Harry S Truman.
angelicdemoncat dressed as the Unknown Power Ranger.
azurefawn didn't dress up, spoilsport.
bleedingarsenic dressed as a disturbing self-made character called "Crusty Bananabreath", though it looked more like the Cardinal of Osbusdale.
caffeineophelia dressed as a squirrel.
captnsparrow dressed as a executive webpage designer.
crazyauntjaynie didn't even show up and doesn't get any candy.
erisangelus dressed as David Beckham's brother.
forgetmelove dressed as a goblin.
gypsyariana dressed as the Magenta Power Ranger.
imnotyoureve dressed as something stiff, but what, specifically, you can't tell.
karmakeys dressed as a bottle of yepphoooid.
kingofthewho dressed as the Viscount of Optistanara.
lasarigue dressed as a character from Harry Potter and the Infinity Hound.
luvnscandl dressed as Halle Berry.
madwhistler dressed as a small ghost.
marcgunn dressed as Mary-Kate Olsen with her very own conjoined Ashley, and it suited them disturbingly well.
marina_le_fae dressed as a new superhero: Space Ranger.
michaelsproject dressed as a 1980's yuppie child.
periphrlbttrfly dressed as Alex Rodriguez, though it looked more like a new superhero: Snow -wave.
pyro_faerie dressed as Anna Kournikova riding a giraffe.
rosemary_dream dressed as a goblin.
suicidal_smiley dressed as the main character of "The Green Mile".
supergoober dressed as a ground.
yamguitar dressed as Marge Simpson.

Throw your own party at the Hallomeme!
Created with phpNonsense

current mood: amused

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Tuesday, October 3rd, 2006
10:51 am - time to start the presents...
Okay its October, and I really need to start Christmas presents.
Must not give away all new projects that I finish. Which lately has been many.
Time to really think about colors and styles for friends and family.
Should find a notebook and write down these things, but we all know that won't happen.
Once again (like every year) I'll work on presents and get some done in plenty of time and still be feverishly working on ones on Christmas eve.
Well its a plan anyway.

current mood: thinking

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Monday, October 2nd, 2006
3:55 am - its Monday...
Its Monday morning at 4am. Why am I awake???? Because our Christmas truck comes in at 5am this morning!!!!!!!
Now usually I would prefer a morning truck to an afternoon truck because you can get more done with it,but 5am is a little early.

Weekend was great...
Friday..dinner with Duchess at North River Tavern than Kareoke afterwards, its great to have friends there to say you sang great.

Saturday.."meet the teacher" at work so I got paid to sit and knit (and try to get people to my class) for three hours. My kind of job.

Sunday..worked out in the shop on a "secret" project for CRF. Not for me but someone else. Going well but a little behind schedule.

Oh David and Brit were in Alabama visiting his mom,they also had picked up Heather from college so she visited too. She has a break coming up..gee might actually get to see her this time.BF always comes first...
*mom pouts..then laughs at the look Heather gives her*

Got to go...

current mood: not quite awake

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Sunday, October 1st, 2006
3:16 pm - swiped from marina
Colorgenics


You are a very sensitive person and you try hard (perhaps a little too hard) to make favourable impressions and to be recognised by your peers. But you have that inherent need to feel appreciated and admired and you are easily hurt if all of your endeavours go by unappreciated or not acknowledged. Stop trying so hard.

You seem to lack the energy of late to get up and go. Your objectives appear to be unattainable and no one seems to care. You feel lost, neglected and need some W.T.C. (Warm tender care).

Circumstances are holding you back, forcing you to back off and to forgo all the pleasures, fun and games for the time being. But this is only a temporary situation and before you even know it the situation could change.

Recent disappointment has led you to become truly introverted. You are becoming suspicious of everybody and consequently you now feel that you are unable to trust anybody. Unfortunately it would appear that you are curbing your natural enthusiasm and imaginative nature - perhaps this is because you are fearful that you may become over enthused and find that you could possibly be carried away by wishful thinking. You are keeping your distance to see whether attitudes towards you are sincere - but this watchfulness could easily develop into suspicion and distrust.

You are being very dogmatic, insisting that there is to be absolutely no equivocation whatsoever about your achievements and accomplishments.

current mood: calm

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Thursday, September 28th, 2006
11:11 pm - update
Not much going on...
Dr.shot both knees again with cortisone (larger doses this time)hopefully I'll be pain free for a while but not holding my breath.
Good thing with this doctor is he's with Atlanta Sports Medicine. Now when I went to the office here by me..nice little office etc, My appointment yesterday was in Buckhead. The Atalanta Sports Medicine is the TEAM DOCTORS FOR THE FALCONS AND THE THRASHERS.
The Buckhead office is HUGE!!!!
And pictures and autographed jerseys are framed and all over the walls. guess if they can get Michael Vick's knees to work mine shouldn't be a problem.

Anyway off to bed ..have to be at work at 6am. But do have the weekend off (sort of) Have class preview at work and since I teach the basic knit class I have to be there, But I get paid to sit and knit and try and get people to join the class.

current mood: tired

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Wednesday, September 27th, 2006
7:43 pm - it figures....
quietmoon's LJ stalker is crazyauntjaynie!
crazyauntjaynie is stalking you because you are really good at bowling. They are also deluded!


LiveJournal Username:


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current mood: amused

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5:26 am - day off
Yeah for a day off!!!!
Going to dr. for follow-up on the knees. Had more good days than bad this month.
Then who knows....
maybe I'll explore...

current mood: chipper

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Monday, September 25th, 2006
9:01 pm - here I go again...
I hate menopause!!!!!!!

Been feeling really good about alot of things lately. Work is better (Our manager James is BACK!!!) And even though the Christmas merch is now flowing in every week is a stress I know I can handle. Been there...done that...type of circumstance.

Home is home. Worry about Heather in college, but thats normal Brit has friends made inschool. Good thing...
Looks like David will be able to get some help at the VA hospital. "Nother good thing.

So why tonight do I feel like crying!!!!!!

Even have plans to go out Friday night with friends. I've been up about this all through my horribly busy weekend at work.

Well I will Not let it get me this time. I refuse to be made to feel terrible by my body reminding me we are getting older. Bah!!
Just someone remind me of this fact if later in the week I'm crying in my despair.

current mood: blah

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Saturday, September 9th, 2006
6:03 am - better
Slept...
Feeling somewhat better, though I look terrible. But then again after crying the eyes are puffy and your body is drained so yeah I look pretty bad.

But don't have to be at work till 2pm so plenty of time to become presentable again.

Will be going back to bed here shortly but when body is used to early rising its hard to tell it "We can sleep in" although I am up maybe an hour later than during the week. Might be due to the fact I remembered to turn off alarm clock when I went to bed. :)

Looking forward to Pirate Palooza, can't wait to hear all my favorite people sing.

current mood: better

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Friday, September 8th, 2006
7:22 pm - poor little me...
feeling very low right now and reallly have no reason to be feeling this way.

David and Brit just left to go to Gma's in Alabama. She called and asked if they were planning to come, was told about being short on gas, no prob she'll get him gas when he gets there. Joy...here I am alone and feeling like sh*t. Its not that I could have gone (got to work...someone in this house does)but its different when no one can go anywhere due to the lack of financial means. Now him and Brit will enjoy a weekend where he won't have to worry about gas, or food,or anything. Mom will take care of it.

Now admit to myself if we lived closer to my mom things would be the same with her on weekends, but since my mom is 8 hours away that doesn't happen much.
Just really upset tonight, so don't mind the rant and rave session.
Gonna go cry for a while and feel sorry for myself.

I'll be okay ...have to be to survive.

current mood: crying

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Tuesday, August 29th, 2006
12:39 pm - okay I'm bored
Like mother like daughter:


You Are 64% Evil

You are very evil. And you're too evil to care.
Those who love you probably also fear you. A lot.

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Monday, August 28th, 2006
4:13 pm - updateness
Okay so I havn't updated in a while. So here it goes:

Went to knee doctor today. Have lots of damage to both knees. Some of it is when my knee is bent,and some when they are straight. (I have no luck)Along with a good amount behind the kneecap. So right now I have two knees full of cortisone, anti-inflammatories to take and exercises to do.
But hey for a change I got a doctor whose first thing wasn't "lose weight". He didn't even mention it.

Decided that retail is going to be a career so been appling for more managment type jobs. Got a call from Toys r Us and had interview today. They said it was "assistant manager" more like storeroom manager (which is okay) but a major cut in pay. If they call back the pay will have to be at least what I'm making now. We'll see.

Heather is doing so-so at college, but it has only been a few weeks at school. Brittani is doing okay, it seems, at high school. My kids are growing up.

Dragon*Con is this weekend. Don't really have money for passes but probably will go and at least cruise the concourses.

Work has been hectic. Our manager is out on medical leave. "Acting manager" is new and assistant manager is also fairly new. Season is upon us and nerves are a bit on edge. So we all have to do want we have to do.

current mood: sore

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Monday, August 21st, 2006
2:18 am - missing sister
Earlier this month, pictures of 50 missing women were found in a convicted murderers possessions in California. One of these pictures, ..33, bares a striking resemblence to my mother's missing sister Darlene Ann Webb. Darlene has been missing since January 1983 after going to a bar one night.

This is a picture of Darlene in 1980:
The picture can also be found at:
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v377/Marina_le_Fae/darlen1.jpg

And this is the picture of ..33:
And this picture can also be found at:
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v377/Marina_le_Fae/darlene.jpg
Please spread the word. Maybe this will help bring her home to the people who miss her dearly.


If any of you can re-post this in your LJs or whatever blog you might have it would be helpful. This is the most promising lead we have had since Darlene's disapperance. And the more people that see her picture the better. Dee would now be 44 years old.
thanks in advance.

current mood: hopeful

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Thursday, August 10th, 2006
1:13 pm - Made it...
Okay yesterday was a bit stressful but all in all not as bad as it could have been.

Only one (okay two) short bursts of tears as we were leaving Heather at UWG.
Today we have Brit's High School Orientation then i have to go to work.

I think work is the more stressful place right now.Two weeks ago my manager collasped at home.Hospital,tests,etc....Two tumors on his brain.
Cancer. Operation to remove one in front part of head, other a base of skull(inoperatable).Recovery okay..he is home now. Have to wait and see about second tumor.
However our asst.manager is a trainee. Only been with us for about a month. So we have a "acting manager" from another store. Plus help from another manager from another store. We have had "our" manager for 5 years so we're used to his ways and these new managers are stressing us out.
Not to mention its season time already and Christmas merch is arriving.

Retail is that way I know but on top of the new school situations at home I'm a mess.

I'll survive though. One doesn't do retail for close to 20-25 years and not learn to handle managers.

current mood: confused

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